Well i cant really explain what I am feeling right now. My boyfriend and I for four months today, are no longer together. The reason?...I'm christian, he is not. To some this might make sense and to the rest of you, this may just be the stupidest thing you have heard...So let me break it down.
Four months ago I was single and content but still lacked a companion. I have had a few crushes and of course I have never acted on them. So one day on a school trip, V ( one of my former crushes) revealed to me that he found me attractive. So I did what any other crush-struck girl would do...I entertained him.
So by now you may be thinking ...OK? so what? you acted on your emotions. You are correct, I did... but this is what the Bible tells me about that.
...those who are living the life of the flesh [catering to the appetites and impulses of their carnal nature] cannot please or satisfy God, or be acceptable to Him. Romans 8:8
Although I felt loved and cared for and although we shared some really intimate moments and although I felt and still do feel like he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, the truth is, it is all just emotions... UGH!! to be honest I do not really want to talk about this. It is just making me wish that somehow things were different and we worked things out. All I know is that I really love this guy and so does God. For now, the only thing I can do is pray. Pray that V accepts God into his life, pray that God understands how much I love him and pray that God miraculously reunites us in the future. If not then I guess it was just another lesson learned WITHIN A LIFETIME!
-Love Kades
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